A New Chapter

Life really does play out in chapters….


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It Is How It Is…But Is It Really Though?


Angry, confused, changed, helpless, enlightened, alone, overwhelmed, excited, open minded….

These are just a few of the emotions that have passed through me recently yet I haven’t had the motivation to put it into words. There is just so much going on and so much to talk about that it seems almost impossible to focus on one subject and just have at it. I have had this overwhelming feeling, like we are on the edge of something great and I don’t want to have my head down blinders on just moseying around mindlessly like another drone through life when it happens.

I hear people say things like “this isn’t how humans are supposed to be living” with so much of the day wasted behind a desk under artificial lights. “LIVE DAMN YOU LIVE.” But we can’t. We aren’t allowed to, or for most of us, don’t have the means to do so. I keep feeling this void that can’t be filled with materialistic things that can be bought, with good job security and decent pay. It can’t be filled with vacations and getaways, it can’t even be filled with the joys of family and love. So what then can fill it?

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So many of us feel that same void and try to fill it with sex, drugs, drinks, and simple distractions that the media told us would make us happy and then we think something is still wrong with us when we are not happy with these things we have filled our life with. The things they told us we should be filling our life with in order to finally catch that dream we have been chasing our entire lives. Once we acquire all the things and we have people in our lives that make up happy…. then what? What is it that we are missing?

Time.

Time to live. That’s what we are missing. The time to actually enjoy all the things we spent our entire lives trying to gather and retain. We shouldn’t be forced to wait until we are 65 to enjoy all that life and leisure time have to offer us. We spend the better parts of our day dedicated to going to work, am I supposed to be happy there? We get home and continue with the stresses of todays daily life at home because we have to now spend that money we worked so hard for on the bills that keep the lights on at home and keep all the machines I’ve bought to entertain or assist me running, but does that make me happy?  Then I finally get 2 days away from work only to return again for another 5, repetitively for 50 years so that I can one day  afford to die in a nice retirement home instead of under a bridge somewhere, is that supposed to make me happy and give me peace of mind? To know I am making enough money to die is defiantly a load of my shoulders….

There is so much corruption and greed in the world that it sometimes feels like there is no alternative to being a drone unless you want to be homeless and hungry under that bridge they are burying you under.

I have started reading books that take my mind to another level of consciousness so that maybe in some realm I can find some bit of happiness. One of them I would highly recommend is “Biocentrism – How Life and Consciousness are the Keys to Understanding the Nature of the Universe” Though I might warn you its one of those books that after you finish it you kind of look at everyone else as if they are stuck in some illusionistic reality, almost as if you are Neo from the Matrix and you have seen the true reality that no one else can see yet. Its like being in on a secret only you and the author know and your looking at everyone else like they are mindless sheep just following along without asking a single question about life throughout their entire existence.

So now that I know this, what do I do with this new found knowledge? I thought about sharing it but explaining it without sounding like a total loon is pretty hard. Trust me, start reading a few pages of the book I mentioned and you will quickly see that explaining it is like explaining color to the blind. Is it possible that on the journey to discovery, enlightenment and interconnectedness that we somehow feel more alone than ever.

I’m also reading a book called Revolution, which is exactly what we are in need of. An enlightenment, a wake-up call, a realization that everything is not ok, its not going to be ok and nothing is ever going to be the same again.

So what do we do about it? I don’t know, hence the emotions I stated earlier. I can’t be the only person that thinks something is very wrong on a much more grandiose global scale as well as a more intimate internal scale, and with the combination of them both it feels like everything is bound to go nowhere. I brush that feeling off only because I see there are others out there with the same feeling and same questions, seeking the same answers.


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Speak


Speak

I read a book called “Speak” it interested me because I can relate to not being the most popular girl in school, though I was never one of the girls that would do anything to become popular, I, just like many other girls, did want to know what it was like to be popular. After reading the first few pages I was hooked. I could relate to what she was going though in school with people not being too fond of her, and then things got real. She is invited to a party that normally would go on without her knowledge because she was not even cool enough to hear one was going on. Of course things start off well everyone is having a good time even the guy she crushes on is even showing her attention. Things take a turn for the worst when he gets her alone. After taking advantage of her she runs inside and calls 911, forgetting that there is a party going on with all of her schools coolest kids drinking underage.

You can see where I am going with this she is now not invisible because of her social status but she is now a common target of physical and mental abuse because she crashed the party. Knowing that everyone hates her she can’t bear to tell anyone that she called the police because she was raped, it is much easier for her to let them believe she was just a snitch. Even her parent don’t understand her strange behavior and she does not want them to make the situation known so she is alone with her own thoughts and fears, with no on to talk to.

They later made a movie based on the book starring “Kristen Stewart” you may know her from more popular movies like “Twilight”. I never pictured her being the star character for that movie but she played it off well, her natural awkwardness what just what the character needed. For a weird girl that is not bad looking but is a total outcast she can play that roll very well, like in the movie the “Runaways”.

I would say the book was very good and the movie portrayed the book well, so overall it was a good all the way around if you are into Lifetime movies with a moral at the end of every story and a somewhat tragic, yet uplifting ending.  It is very chick flick, teen movie drama but it is still a good flick.

Trailer 

You can watch the entire movie for free on YouTube in parts, it is worth the watch especially if you are unwilling to read the book.

Part 1 

Part 2 

Part 3 

Part 4 

 Part 5 

Part 6

Part 7 

Part 8

Part 9

Part 10


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People Like it That Much???


Fifty Shades of Grey

So it has come to my knowledge that there is a best-selling book that has even surpassed the infamously popular “Harry Potter” collection. It’s called “Fifty Shades of Grey” I am sure you have heard of it at one point or another. It is flying off the shelf so I decided to see what all the fuss is about and look up the synopsis…. and yes this is really what is about only expressed in my words.

Basically it about a billionaire guy, and a young virgin girl, and she wants to be ready for her next sex escapade with the guy she actually loves, and she does not want to disappoint him sexually. So she figures she can get with some slutty guy to teach her all about “sex” and “love”. But he has been through this before I’m sure so he makes her sign a contract so that he completely controls her life….. Oh and by the way… he likes light bondage.

…..Honestly that is ridiculous why is there so much hype about a book that is about a virgin being ruined, by what seems to be some selfish rich guy.

Now I don’t want everyone to all of a sudden hate me because I didn’t read the book and I am just talking about a few reviews and summary’s of it. I never said this was a review, just a question really.

What would make people obsess over a book about that???

I guess I am a bit lost as to what it is that would make this so appealing to the public, but I guess you can say that about a lot of the things that have sparked the interest of today’s society that have made me question my faith in humanity. But after reading about the nature of this book and realizing the clear popularity of it it made me think…. are we living in a world of perverts????