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Thanks Obama


It really grinds my gears when people talk about Obama like he is the one single reason why we are in the mess we are in. Its like no one knows what it’s like to work on a team of shitty people and you’re the only one doing the work. (yeah we are the shitty people)

He is one man… that’s it … only one man….. it is going to take a nation to fix nation wide problems.
If you don’t like the way things are?
Here’s a thought, why don’t you research ways to make it better, no matter the scale of your impact, working towards solving a problem is better than just sitting around complaining about it.
No matter who we put in charge… Obama, McCain, or Clinton. (btw…like did you forget what we had to choose from… slim pickin’s) It’s like people thought we were electing a savior not a president. He hasn’t let me down because there is nothing ONE man can do to help or hurt the enormity of these problems, it will take all of us to really make a change.
There are much bigger things going wrong in this world to bitch about… find something other than Obama, he is honestly the least of your worries.

Try these issues on for size.. try bitching about something that matters:

  • Homelessness
  • Lack of Clean Water
  • Lack of Food
  • GMO Foods
  • Excess Waste in Landfills
  • Global Warming
  • Toxins from Chemtrails
  • Plastics in the Ocean
  • Extinction of Animals
  • Extinction of Places (go see them before they are gone)
  • Over Population
  • Slavery (which is still going on in some places google that shit)
  • Human Trafficking

 

I can go on forever about much more relevant high priority items on america list of things to bitch about so do me a favor and leave Obama alone, he is just one man, stop treating him like he was supposed to be a savior and he let you down. I am not telling anyone anything they don’t already know but sometime people just need to remove the stick from their ass and realize there is a bigger picture and in the event that any one of the inevitable disasters happens and you are all dying and blaming Obama just remember he will also be dying.

There is no one person that will gain from the suffering of the world so there is no point in saying that is obviously his end goal, because we all will suffer including him. No matter how much money you have, no matter if you’re a republican or a democrat, whether you’re black or white or whether you believe in Jesus or not. When the end come its going to come for all of us and it will also be because of us.

So moral of the story … stop being a racist hick trying to play the blame game and make the change you want to see happening.

“Earth provides enough to satisfy every man’s needs, but not every man’s greed.”~Mahatma Gandhi

This is how most peoples thought on the situation


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Little Smiles


I haven’t written anything in a while and if you read my last post “Lost Time” you would have a pretty good idea as to why.

Time seems to be slipping by me these days, rushing through the week just to get to the weekend and of course with the famous saying ” time flies when you’re having fun” so the weekends seem to just fly by too. Before I know it I am half way through the year and already planning for winter events.

Nonetheless there are times when “time” seems to slow down and I have a second  or two to just “smell the roses” if you will.

There are moments when I am with my significant other where I find myself with a “little smile” like I am laughing at my own inside joke. Just the little things like when we go to sleep and we perfectly form to one another and drift off, I am drifting with a little smile.

Or the moment when I walk through the door after a long day and I burst through the door and throw myself on the bed for some much-needed relief and he tells me to come over and sit next to him at our desk. A little smile comes over me because I know he wants me close to him.

When we finish each other sentence almost without even speaking decodable words just babble and grunts and somehow we honestly know exactly what the other is trying to say.

The moment when something happens to me and I want to tell the world … I reach for my phone and the only number I really want to call is his. Telling him is like telling the world to me because he is my world. He is the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before I go to bed.

It’s these little things in my life that I truly appreciate and try to never take advantage of. One of the things that I do to try to not take advantage of the person willing to put up with my crazy ass is always saying I love you.

Even when your mad and you have been fighting all day, you better believe that before I go to bed that night I am saying I love you. Before you leave the house either in rage from a fight, or just to go to the corner store I am saying I love you. Just for the simple fact that we are not guaranteed tomorrow and no matter what you did to piss me off that day, nothing would supersedes the overwhelming emotions I would feel if I didn’t say anything and something happened. I am not going to be left alone to sing Katy Perry’s “The One that Got Away.

Well I probably sound like a school girl crushing on her high school obsession, but we have been together for almost 8 years and it just amazes me sometimes how much we still can stand each other.

I think that is what happens when you grow WITH someone and become the person you are WITH them. Because people change constantly, you can’t find the perfect person and say I will only love them as long as they stay like this forever. (not talking about looks because that will obviously change) I think if you can find someone you can grow with and change with then you have found love.

The number one excuse I hear from couples is “he changed” or she changed” but that is expected of any person. You don’t just stop maturing once you have succeeded in finding a mate. You have to be willing to love that person no matter who they want to be that day. That’s love. I found it so I know what I’m talking about. I just wanted share because I think he is the guy that all the girls are looking for and he is mine. I feel like that’s just something that needed to be shouted from the rooftops, but since I can’t get on the roof my blog will have to do.

He has dedicated a few songs to me but this one is one from me to him ❤

Ed Sheeran- “Lego House”


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An Adolescence Story


I know everyone has been beaten to death with this subject but I have to say something about it. I feel almost obligated to at the very least give my story and my opinion, since I am someone that is speaking from experience.

Recently I have been seeing shows like “Teen Mom” or “16 and Pregnant” and I see the way that people perceive these girls. They think of them as dumb sluts, or abused children that want attention or someone to love them. In many cases I am sure that’s true because I have watched the shows and see what comes out of the mouths of these immature, inexperienced, babies having babies. So I am sure that the statistics are somewhat true when they say that less than 2% of the teen moms that get pregnant don’t graduate from school, but honestly is that really just because of the baby or were they already the type of person to give up, they just needed a reason? Everyone immediately assumes that as soon as you have a baby that young you have completely ruined your life and you will never return.

I am not saying that I am a supporter of teen sex or pregnancy because I do think there are a lot of dumb teens that will eventually mess up their entire life and blame it on the baby, when really they didn’t sound like they were going to be upstanding citizens in the first place, baby or not.

I guess I must be the rare exception to the statistic, because I had my daughter when I was 13. I tell most people that I was 14 at least because the math adds up but she was born November 22nd, and my birthday is December 6th, so the lie is not that big. I know what you’re thinking already…. And no I wasn’t a slut, and I wasn’t raped, and no one abused me and made me want a child so I had someone to love me. I had a mishap with birth control because we often forget that it is 98% effective against pregnancy not 100%. Does not seem like much, but it is. Me and my ex were both virgins and I got pregnant the first time.

I was just a stupid teen making all the wrong decisions for myself in spite of what people warned me about, you know the typical teen, and my mother told me that if I was going to make an adult decision like this, I was going to live with the consequences of my actions. And I did. But I didn’t think that my life was over, just different. Yeah, I missed a lot of things like prom but we all have seen the show and heard the sob story from all the shows about missing so many immature childish things we cherish as teens, and that is not why I am writing this. I don’t want to give you another sob story.

I just want people to think before the instantly make an assumption about someone, before they instantly start trying to scare someone into believing that there life is over, they will not amount to be anything, and they are giving up everything. Maybe if we weren’t instantly mean and judgmental we could actually help some of these lost teens.

People were awful when I was pregnant they always looked at me like I was a trashy. At school was the worst of it because you know how mean other teens can be, they just say whatever comes into their minds. They all judge like they would never be in that situation but they have been, if they had sex they are setting themselves up for that situation. The only difference between me and all the other girls was that my secret sexual life was bulging out of the bottom of my shirt for everyone to point at and talk about. Yes, I see there is a large epidemic going around of pregnant teens but there has to be a better reason then they just did it because it was the cool thing to do. Not all of our teenagers can be that stupid. There has to be a bigger reason. And besides that everyone is different and you don’t know there story so there is no point in judging them right off the bat.

Judgmental Much?

This is just my opinion though I could be wrong, but I am living proof that you can have a baby at a ridiculously young age and overcome the hardship of life and if you work hard enough things can happen for you still. You will be young enough to have the energy to run around with your kid and your child will be old enough to remember the vacations and trips that you go on because by the time you are established they are old enough to join you on those fun adventures and it’s not a hassle, like when you are trying to bring a toddler or an infant with you. When you are old enough to retire and go back to focusing on your life because your child has grown up you and your kid will be practically the same age you guys can go party together LOL!!!  I just tried to look at the brighter side of things, it’s really all you can do when you are placed in a situation like that. If this is going to be the new trend and no one knows how to stop it, or why it is even happening, then we need to cope and adjust to it and find a better way to handle the situation. Not just scare girls into not getting pregnant, that obviously isn’t working the more we advertise the dangers the more teens rebel and get pregnant on purpose.

I can’t stand the way people are so cruel sometimes, even doctors would say things just to scare me telling me things like “you are going to have to have to learn how to take care of a premature baby because even if she is delivered on time, she most likely is going to be as big as a preme and have the same problems as a premature baby.”

My daughter was 8.4 pounds 19.6 inches long.

Halie A’marie

So whether it was a mean teen, or a dignified doctor, the reaction is the same, and the way they treat you is the same, I just think there has to be a better way to treat people even if they made a huge mistake. People act like teen moms are the scum of the earth, and our children are doomed. We can think of a way to be more understanding, and tolerant, try to educate (not scare) our kids before they get pregnant. Sex Ed is not enough, giving them free condoms is not enough, and scaring our current pregnant teens is not enough.

By advertising teen pregnancy I think we have already ruined our teens perception on what life is supposed to be like, but that does not mean that is too late to reeducate them and see if we can get them to look at things from another point of view. The only part of the Teen Mom Show that I find to be helping out our teens and the discussion they have  in the last 5 minutes of the show when they sit and explain what the reality shock was like when they found out how hard it really was to have a baby and how much they really had to give up. That is the only eye opening part that I feel all teens should look at it and go “WOW I don’t want to miss my prom!!” if nothing else these immature girls should at least realize all the fun stuff they aren’t going to be able to do anymore, it is more like being grounded and having to babysit for the next 18 years, instead of the white picket fence and 2.5 kids with prince charming and a dog, like playing house is so easy and fun.

You would think that a reality shock would do the trick but it seems like teens now a days are harder to break, unlike when I was a teen you could take my TV and I would do practically anything to get it back I didn’t like having things taken away from me but it seems like these kids just don’t care.

I guess the only reason I am writing this is to see if people can broaden the horizon and start to think from a different point of view. It takes a village to raise a child; it is going to take all of us to get these kids in line.

The Pregnancy Pact

Part 1 

Part 2 

Part 3 

Part 4 

Part 5 

Part 6

Part 7

 I thought this is a good movie to get conversation started with your kid, and also to enlighten parents on how there kids are really thinking…. and it is just a  good flick!


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The Human Impact



I always put a lot of work into my papers that I wrote while I was in school and I liked this one so much that I thought I might share it. I was a bit of a tree-hugger so that explains why I was so passionate about the theme of this paper.

The Human Impact

There are people out there who still deny that this world is in the middle of a pandemic. The most threatening creatures on the planet Earth are humans.  The impact that we have on the earth has been monumental compared to the colossal dinosaurs that walked here before us. It just goes to show that it does not matter the size of the organism, the impact can still be considerable. Take, for example, microscopic, single cell life forms which may have been the first things to be on this planet. Some scientists believe that we my have even evolved from them.  This makes me wonder why billions of years ago when all there was on the earth was single-celled life forms, why the world was in such good shape. It is not age that has harmed our earth but the very inhabitants in it. Every individual can have different amounts of impact but with all of us together on one planet, every individual’s actions make a substantial difference.  We are completely oblivious to the real amount of food, non-renewable recourses, and other products we use, waste, and produce, throughout a lifetime. Even the economy is helping us destroy this beautiful planet.  We are all responsible for what may be the greatest preventable holocaust in the history of earth.

The nation consumes around 1,659,630,427 pounds of food every day. Just to make breakfast 19,826 eggs, about 17,170 loaves, and around 26,112 cups of milk are drank (Hogart). What we do not see is the time and energy that it took to get the eggs, toast, and milk to the breakfast table. You need around 2.1 million cows that are eating 220 pounds of grass a day just to support our main source of milk. I heard that we are the only mammal who continues to drink milk after we stop breastfeeding. I am beginning to wonder if that is a bad thing. There are many people who cannot even consume milk because their body cannot digest it properly, but, unfortunately, the people who can drink milk make up it by eating mass amounts of cereal, butter, and other products made from milk.

Not only are we consuming food at an alarming rate but we are also consuming other commodities of life as well.  One of the worst consumptions that is taking place right now is alcohol. 10.6% of the population’s youth are binge drinkers, and 2.5% are heavy drinkers (U.S.). Cigarettes are a very big habit of ours that is extremely bad for the environment and the people in it. If a person starts smoking at age 17 all the way until he is 71, he will consume over 300,000 sticks of cancer. If you pile up 300,000 cigarettes and then multiply that by the amount of people who smoke in the world, which is about 30% (Shaw),  then I do not see why all of our landfills are not full with just cigarettes. They say the reason why people continue with such destructive behavior is because of stress related issues in their life. If a world in crisis is not enough to stress out about, then I do not know what is. Though bad behavior is not the answer to the problems, it is not hard to understand where the youth are coming from.

We do not just destroy the earth with just our waste but our production as well. Oil production has been one of the most useful things for humans; unfortunately, it is one of the most devastating for nature. With oil or petrol we can make almost anything such as toothbrushes, toothpaste, computers, all plastics, cars, gas to run your cars a never-ending list. You cannot go a day without using oil made products, not only in America but in all the rest of the world as well. We all know that oil is not a renewable resource, yet we pretend like the day will never come that there is no more gas at the gas pump. Almost 40% of the world’s oil reserves are in Saudi Arabia (Nelder). They are now spending millions if not billions of dollars drilling off shore because they have not hit any big oil patches on land. These are things that we do not think about when we start our car every morning to get ourselves to work and our children off to school. Solving the problem of oil is going to be one of the toughest habits we will have to kick. It is almost becoming more expensive to drill for oil then the pay out for the new well will produce, because the places that oil are located are harder to access, drill, and send to the places that need to use it. Just making a new product that takes the place of oil so that we can continue living the way that we do, pretending there is not a disaster in the making is not a possibility in our future. For example, the product ethanol is very popular and people think that it will be the solution so they do not have to worry about changing; unfortunately, what people do not know about the wonder product is that it is more expensive to produce then just gas from crude oil. Also, in case you did not know, ethanol is made out of a corn extract. For the amount of oil we use a day, we would have to fill up all the farming land on earth to produce enough to make ethanol the fuel of tomorrow. Crude oil it is much more expensive because it is used to generate everything, and you get 1 barrel of oil for 23,200 hours of human work. (Hogart) If you start thinking about how much we consume, the numbers are outrageous. In the entire world, we produce 85,472,000 barrels a day that sounds like a large enough number to support the world, until you take into account that we consume 85,534,000 a day. We have gone past the point where we’re are consuming faster than we can make the product. The fight for oil has almost ripped humanity apart; we will do anything to get our hands on some of that “black gold”. The previous Presidents of the United States said that they wanted to drill for oil in one of the last natural places on earth. In Alaska, there Is a wildlife reserve for endangered animals, because that is one of the few places on earth that we have not gone and thrown animals out so we can have another highway and another Wal-Mart. Since the energy crisis, we have not conserved energy the previous president thinks that an increase in energy supply, rather than a decrease in demand is a problem solving method unfortunately there is just not enough energy to over compensate for the overwhelming demand.

There are other products we waste as well, please do not think of waste as just feces there is also toilet paper, condoms, feminine products, and, of course, everything else our children decide they do not need anymore and they flush it down the toilet. Speaking of children, they consume a great deal for being so little. When we grow up, we continue to consume as if nothing is going to happen. Babies who are still young enough to use diapers cost plenty and use a lot of resources. It seems to not be of very much concern because people think that babies only use them for a few years so they do not really use up that much, here are some examples of all the waste we accumulate over our lives:

  • Babies young enough to use diapers use about 3,800 before the age of two
  • On Christmas we waste over 90,000 yards of wrapping paper a year
  • About 178,000,000 aluminum cans are made every day ( almost 2,000 every second)
  • There are around 3,000 Christmas card sent and trashed every year
  • 60 million plastic bottles produced every day
  • 64 tons of waste sent to landfills over the span of an average human life (around 74 years)
  • 246 million tons are driven to are nations landfills every year

We still don’t know how long it takes for plastic to degrade. Once you hear the number you begin to realize just how much of an impact just one person can have on an entire planet (Hogart).

People say that ignorance is bliss, but if we continue being ignorant to this life threatening problem, then life as we know it for everyone will be over. This is not a problem that we can just fix. This is a problem that most of us will not even realize until we really are in a visible crisis, when there are riots in the streets and supermarkets just to get the last of all the resources left. Once the public is in a state of panic, and only when we are in a state of panic, will we realize that we need to change our ways. History tends to repeat itself, and there have been plenty of droughts, famine and natural disasters to warn us to prepare for what is coming. All of the places that we considered to be third world countries might not be affected as much since they will not really have to get used to living without the simple luxuries that we have every day.

After we consume billions of tons of oil, eat and waste billions of tons of product, what could we do to change our inevitable future? There is not just one answer to just one problem, because there is not just one problem. There will not just be one smart person who comes along and saves the world; it will take all 6.7 billion people on this earth. There are new inventions every day, and every day we are moving closer to a cure for this disease we have created for ourselves. Take, for example, the car that runs on air. This does not have parts that you can just plug into your old car. This car uses new technology never before thought of, enough energy to power a car. It uses compressed air to move the pistons instead of a combustible explosion. As far as emissions, there are none. This car can push out clean cool air as it is driving, and you will never have to fill the tank, because it just recompresses the same air. If this is not an inspirational thought to make you think there is hope for us humans after all, then I do not know what is. There are many innovative applications in the world today that strive to be energy-efficient and eco-safe. For example, they have begun building homes out of new materials, such as mud or clay mixtures, dug outs of hillsides some of the ideas might not be the brightest. In my opinion, tree houses are just asking for trouble, but there is a skilled craftsman who makes 10 to 15 a year.

Not long ago I heard of a man who was on a mission to make little to no impact on the planet he used his family in the experiment to see if it was possible for an average American family can live without the everyday comforts. Not only was it possible for this man and his small family to live without the daily comforts that we take for granted but he also helped his wife reverse the signs of diabetes with a simple change in diet and preparation of food. This just goes to show you that there is a way to live without all the luxuries we tricked ourselves into “needing” instead of just wanting. By just using reusable instead of disposable we could cut our daily trash by more than half.  As a result of just buying food and other products that is not prepackaged and wrapped in plastics and boxes you save trees, oil, and all kinds of other resources that we can never use again.

Weather we are able to admit it or not, we are living in a world in crisis. We have become dependent on the comforts that this new civilized world has to offer. We take for granted the fact that we can go to the sink and fresh clean water is available at any given time, the fact that when we are cold we can just go and turn on a switch to fill our homes with warm clean air, we have light every time we turn on a light switch. These are the same day-to-day things that we can now, not live without. Without these simple conveniences, maybe we would spend more of our time being productive instead of spending time polluting the earth with our life simplifying products. All of it is bound to come to an end. Even though this cure to this worldly disease does not offer much insight to solutions to our current problems that is why they call it a “crisis” that we are in. If we were just changing everything to adapt to the new world ahead of us, it would be called a revolution.

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